its a new year

so i've been asking people if they made a resolution.
so far :

"its too cheesy. i don't want to tell you"
and
"I can't say right now"

so i haven't made a resolution persay.
i have several things i want to do this year.
so heres the list

finish my peacock tattoo
add to my lotus and bird tattoo on the other arm

spend more time with my pen and my journal

get married to Noel
live happily everafter, which requires alot of work. hah.

master the trainer kite

cook more.

take a course.
cooking or photography.
maybe both.

while in canmore i bought a journal and spent the day alone, walking the streets, shopping and having lunch alone. i sat down and wrote down a few things. i narrowed some stuff down.
and what i figured out is my three greatest fears and from there spent time disecting them a little. and decided that my goal is to continue to improve in these areas. they are things that won't just change. things i can't just magically fix. its gonna be a journey. a hard one. but i've decided this is it. i'm fighting the fear of these three things in my life :

rejection
humiliation
failure

its a tough list for me and i easily deal with one or more of them on a daily basis. so this may not be a new years resolution, but a life commitment. where i sit now i can't see fully defeating any of these but i'm gonna fight them so i can be a better person, a better mom, a better friend, a better daughter and of course a better wife.

so thats that.

peace. word.

*D*